I still remember when I saw for the first time the positive test. I kept reading the sentence on the box test “if the second line appears, even slightly, it is a positive test.’ and that January 8, 2008 the second line was just barely visible. I did not know what it meant to be pregnant. I did not think that was going to me, bride to be only three months. I was so incredulous and I began to ask myself a thousand and more than a thousand questions! “Is this really happening to me? Will I be a good mother? I can raise them and educate them in the best way? Until yesterday I was only a child and now instead I begin to be a mother”. I did not believe. I could not believe, only in the morning I knew it when, turning off the alarm clock, my gaze met that first pair of shoes that I gave to my husband to announce the good news. I think that disbelief in this news has remained a constant until the end and even beyond, but during my 40+5 weeks, the evident changes in my body spoke for itself. My belly became huge with stretch marks, my legs were like two formless trunks and the balance went up to 25kg. I was an hot-air balloon! By the way, I’ve never been particularly thin and even today, after giving birth to my third son, those kilogrammes are still with me to keep me company, to remind me that my body was made to give birth to my three wonderful masterpieces, which love to fall asleep laying on my belly, to smell of my skin.
I cannot say to be proud of my body. Going and do shopping has become frustrating, a torture, but I’m proud of what my body has produced, how it has changed over my three pregnancies adapting to the needs of Leonardo before, then Alberto and now the little Giacomo.
My belly will remain inevitably fluffy and marked for the rest of my life, my body will remain modified forever, but I do not care! I just look at my children and there is no best picture! When they look at me, they see their mum, the most important woman in their life, willing to alienate and bend over backwards for their happiness, to allow a peaceful and happy childhood. Seeing them growing with a smile is the best post-partum diet! – Irene